It is just hard because 90% of the kids in my school think I enjoy this, think I get special treatment, think that I am just a waste, ect.
And it hurts because there are kids who go to school until 4th pd and then go get high..? I mean c'mon...

I just basically wanna know that I am not stupid, or illogical for thinking the way I am thinking.
I am pretty positive I will go home-bound until the end of winter, or so on
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Young man, you are enjoying this, and you are getting special treatment.
Here is why I say this;

You feel safe at home from the ridicule and bantering of your school mates, I understand this, we all know it hurts when people make fun of us, but GERD is in no way a disabling, or crippling disease, and in most cases where young people have GERD it tends to be more of an emotionally driven disease, your emotions and how you deal with them will greatly effect you symptoms. As for your other ailments??

This is your senior year, it is the single most important year of your entire high school career, all your sat's, college apps, will hinge on what you do this year. Why not PROVE all those people whom you are worried about WRONG by going to school for the entire year without missing a single day from now till you graduate, that would shut them all up real quick.

No it will not be easy, and yes they will still say things, just smile and keep on walking, I know, easier said than done, however if they see it bothering you they will keep on picking on you, once they see it does'nt bother you there will be nothing left for them to say.

You CAN do this, You are NOT stupid, grab your boot staps, brush your self off, and get the heck in there and have a great senior year.


And just to let you know, my youngest daughter (now 19) had a problem in 9th grade, I got a call at work that she was rushed to the hospital via ambulance from her class. The only thing the doctors knew was that her liver was failing rapidly, but did not know why. After 3 months of tests, all kinds of different medications, her condition was still declining. She was placed on the emergency transplant list, which at the time there were no suitable donors, we started planning for her impending death. Then finally a new specialist that was brought in tried some experimental medication which seemed to stabilize her, so home she came and the home schooling began. As with you, our school system was very accomidating, they provided a tutor 3 days a week for here entire sophmore year, she moved into her junior year with honors, (the first time in her life with honors), needles to say she did not want to go back to school citing the same exact reasons as you. Her mom and I told her the SAME thing I told you, she did not like it but she did it. Her junior and senior years were the best years she ever had, she made high honors every quarter and graduated on the high honors list, she is now in college. She was always a c-d student before this happened, so you never know, she certainly surprised us.


It is time to unleash your self and go get what you want, you are the only one holding yourself back.

I wish you great success in you senior year.

Tim

 

You've received encouraging words from everyone, however, you will have to decide the outcome.

It was a French Psychologist, I think, that said, "When our imagination and will-power are in conflict our imagination always wins." Humans don't have much long term results from will power, that's why "diets" don't work.

If you imagine folks are making fun of you, laughing at you, when you see a smirk on their face, or looking at you in a particular way---then in your mind they are! (Even if they are not)

It's like, Mind over Matter: if you don't mind it doesn't matter. You are the only person who can control what you think (and do). Decide before an event happens how you will handle it, then you will be less likely to emotionally involved.

Hey, grab life by the Horns!!!